Hi.. Decided to let my lazy hands get working once again ... As usual I'm blogging in a rather down mood... So as usual my blog would sound sad ... Thought through alot about life today ... The MRT ride really made me understand a bit more about the nature of human beings... I wouldnt say I understand them as much as an anthropologist but I think I can understand to the maximum that my puny little brain can accept... I found out that human being always claim to be un-materialistic... That is I GOT TO EMPHASIZE - UTTER BULLSHIT !!! People who claim to be un-materialistic are just less materialistic ... Everyone in this world has a certain degree of materialism... Its only how much and how little that determines you... Lets take this analogy for example ... A person is allowed to choose between a pillow with golden threads however its inside are full of crap and a oyster that has not produced a beautiful pearl.... Im quite certain that 90% of us would choose the pillow over the oyster if we didnt tell them what is inside.... This is rather true in life ... People often say that looks don't matter a single bit to them ... But 9 out of 10 would have a spouse who is good looking maybe not handsome but very presentable ... The analogy fits into this situation perfectly.... People would have this mindset - Good looking I WANT !!!! They don't really give a damn second care about the guy or girl's character ... Im feeling damn sad while typing this post ... Im pondering over the ugly side of humans as well as trying to get rid of the amount of guilt that I'm going through... I seem to be trying to act Cupid but I'm messing it up seriously ... Couples seem to be breaking apart in front of me ... Did I really say or did something wrong ? Haizzz I should really just keep my damn mouth shut or maybe I SHOULDN'T EVEN EXIST ... I've been wondering whether if someday I would just disappear from the face of earth ... Other then my families , would anyone worry or care ? If yes who would it be ? I really wish it would be her ... But I think not ..... Im hoping for too much ... Oh yea by the way , Thanks Winnie for letting me understand more about religion ... Got a clearer thinking about Christianity now ... I really need someone to talk to .... Haiz I really wish it were you ... But somehow I think I'm wishing for too much again ...
